Crush…😉

You love him but you can’t have him,

It would be going against all odds,

unacceptable . One of the „it was never meant to be“. But there is a thin line of it could be.

Your heart skips a beat at the thought of people knowing you like him a little too much. Could be embarrassing. They will think you are lame.

You can’t ignore the fact that he drives you insanely crazy. This kills you silently. But you have made peace with knowing it can never be more than what you would want.

You fantasize. Maybe hit it and get over it. He will reject you, you fear. You are way out of his league. You think. You hate him sometimes because you feel like he is dancing on your feelings.

He is your good friend. He listens. He is so beautiful to look at. His eyes tear through yours and you feel you tummy turn. You want more but more might be unhealthy. Things you want to do to him and with him. (Bites tongue) But for your own good, you back off.

Anytime you know you might meet him your mind goes on a trip. Your heart beats so fast. When he leaves you can picture your beautiful babies with him. They have his eyes and his hair. They are intelligent just like him.

You have such good moments together but there is no graduating from friendship to coupling. You are so sure of this. God knows you want to kiss him so bad. You restrain because there is no going back from there.

He leaves to his significant other. You leave yours. When he is single you wish him to be single too. You crave him, desire him, covet him. Is it just lust or is this what love is? You can’t tell. You won’t dare to try.

You wish everyday that all it is, is just mere infatuation. Although it haunts you so deep to be.

Is there a drug to heal a crush?

Ps: HE could be HER too 😃

Do you have a crush?

7 Comments

  • Alice Mburu

    I had once watched this Kind of a Programm where people they have crushes on other people . Most of them were their best Friends.
    It happend that, they went on a normal date and during the Date the one who had more Feeling for the other Person talked about how they feel about them. To some it came as a suprise and cld not handle the Situation and went away cozthey did not feel the Same way. Others reacted in a positive way. They felt the same way . They found out they had Feelings but did not know how to tell the other Person.
    So i wld advise you Talk abt it and who knows maybe he is sailing in the Same boat as you.

  • Mary

    Crushing on someone is a sweet sour encounter. There is so much yearning and fear at the same time. But one thing I have learnt is to talk about my feelings (depends on some factors) especially with people who i care about. This way, the associated burden is offloaded and in some cases someone helps you carry the burden. These things can be really stressful if kept inside for too long. I would say…talk to HIM or HER 😃and i wish you the best of luck.

  • jackmugoyablog

    All this sounds very familiar. I told her and lost her. Even the friendship was gone. But if I had to do it all over again I would tell her again. Maybe better luck this time😉. Great piece of writing there.

    • Ciru

      Sometimes you just have to gamble. You lose or you win. Some of these things shouldn’t be harboured too long. It might be easier once you pour your heart out. ☺️

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