You love him but you can’t have him,
It would be going against all odds,
unacceptable . One of the “it was never meant to be.” But there is a thin line of “it could be.”
Your heart skips a beat at the thought of people knowing you like him a little too much. Could be embarrassing. They will think you are lame.
You can’t ignore the fact that he drives you insanely crazy. This kills you silently. But you have made peace with knowing it can never be more than what you would want it to become.
You fantasize. Maybe hit it and get over it. He will reject you, you fear. You are way out of his league. You think. You hate him sometimes because you feel like he is dancing on your feelings. You are weary, coz maybe it’s the idea of being with him that you are more in love with.
He is your good friend. He listens. He is so beautiful to look at. His eyes tear through yours and you feel you tummy turn. You want more but more might be unhealthy. Things you want to do to him and with him. (Bites tongue) But for your own good, you back off.
Anytime you know you might meet him your mind goes on a trip. Your heart beats so fast. When he leaves you can picture your beautiful babies with him. They have his eyes and his hair. They are intelligent just like him.
You have such good moments together but there is no graduating from friendship to coupling. You are so sure of this. God knows you want to kiss him so bad. You restrain because there is no going back from there.
He leaves to his significant other. You leave yours. When he is single you wish him to be single too. You crave him, desire him, covet him. Is it just lust or is this what love is? You can’t tell. You won’t dare to try.
You wish everyday that all it is, is just mere infatuation. Although it haunts you so deep to be.
Is there a drug to heal a crush?
Ps: HE could be HER too or THEY 😃
Do you have a crush?